Hi everyone, this is the longest I’ve gone without publishing anything here. Life has felt hectic with work and wedding planning. It’s really during these moments though that I need to be spending time with myself and in self-reflection to remain feeling myself, though, so I’m grateful for these questions from Onsite. In about a month my involuntary promotion at work will end – so I will revert back to less pay but I will also be in a less stressful position at work, which I am very much looking forward to.
Anyways, today’s question is, “How well do you display and communicate your emotions?”
It kind of depends for me. With my fiancé I feel like I mostly express my emotions accurately with him and can let him know about my emotional world well, maybe 80% of the time? If I don’t, I usually take some time to process my emotions and then I am able to tell him later. With regards to myself, I think I used to take much longer to express and communicate my emotions to myself – like weeks or even never. But now it doesn’t take me longer than a few days. At work, even in my frustration and annoyance, I have to be able to channel that in some professional manner, which I’m still learning.
My vice with that now, however, is that I’ll often not express my emotions at all at work, so that is something I’d like to learn better how to do professionally. With therapy, I have also been doing better at expressing my emotions. I still do this thing where I laugh when I’m talking about something uncomfortable – but I am a lot more aware of it now and I actually intentionally try to stop it because I recognized it’s a learned response of trying to suppress pain.
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