Getting to know myself – prompt 12 – the heart as it is

I have a good excuse for not keeping up with these – and that is because of my summer class! But it is mostly done for now, so I will continue answering these questions. Today’s prompt from Onsite is: “What fears do you face in your mental health journey? How do you think these fears have held you back?”

I’m not sure how to answer this question, but some things come to mind:

I remember how at Onsite, it was mainly the fear of feeling things so intensely and feeling alone in the feelings that made therapy quite scary (although I knew it would help, and it did)
Something that’s always been a sensitive point for me is the racial trauma I’ve experienced, because it always feel so shaming and I already grew up with a lot of shame. Feeling that shame in any matter does not feel good, even though I know it’s simply signaling that I need to feel it.

I suppose from processing these things, a constant fear I’ve noticed, even in ongoing therapy, is feeling “negative” emotions alone. Honestly, I think it will be a fear that I may always have, but I know at this point in my life I have some resources and people to turn to so that I’m never really alone when my mind and body need to feel these things.