the heart as it is | courage • grief • beauty

Today’s prompt from Onsite is “How connected do you feel with yourself? Are you able to fully embrace who you are?”

I’m not sure how to answer this question without something like a scale to base it off on, so the best answer I can give right now is I have been feeling more connected with myself than I ever have been, and my lifelong goal is to continue to feel and be more connected with myself. Why I sought out therapy, why I decided to step out of certain religious spaces and into other religious spaces, who I married – these are all testaments to my efforts of trying to become more connected with myself and God already within me.

I’m not at the place where I can 100% embrace who I am, in fact, I’m not sure if I will ever reach that point (does anyone even? maybe like 97% at most). Being connected with myself also means being more connected to the things that bring me more childlike joy, but also the things that pain my heart and that I am deeply sensitive to. I’m still currently struggling with certain aspects of aging (yes I know I’m not thaaat old, but nonetheless I am still aging), but lately I’ve been able to embrace again, and in more healthy ways, my mother heritage and culture.

Thanks for reading if you have !